LiVe LaUgH LoVe: Down and Out

The last couple months, as you all know from reading my blog, have seen my struggles with working out and trying to eat better then I normally would, well as much as I have been working out (almost 5 times a week) I have not seen any changes in my body... like AT ALL... so I decided that maybe it was time to go see the doc and see what she had to say about all my hard work not paying off, and not to mention the fact that I haven't really felt very good the last month or two (my body just doesn't seem normal). I just wanted to make sure that I wasn't doing something wrong and I was taking accurate steps toward my weight lose and didn't have any medical conditions standing in the way... you know because people how are very overweight tend to have medical problems.

As I have found out I definitely have a lot of blood work that is very high such as cholesterol and triglicoids, but what I thought might be off which was causing me to not lose much weight was my thyroid and as far as I can tell it is normal, so my doctor recommended I check on the type of birth control I take and sure enough it turns out that all the symptoms I'm having in my (not 'normal') state are all side effects on the pills I am on... so I may have found a cure if only I could get ahold of my other doctor to try and get me fixed up. I have high hopes but either way I can't give up on my health anymore I have to continue to be strong and fight for my life!

I have loved watching the Biggest Loser on Monday nights it's so encouraging to me that these people are just like me and if they can overcome something SO hard then I know I can!

Also, this weekend I had a huge break through and break down, at the gym on Sunday morning I was SO thrilled to get to wear the new Brooks I bought and as I was wearing them my feet started to hurt, so I did as they told me to and I switched to my old pair in hopes that I will be able to break them in. Well, this little incident really set me off, I was having just a crazy break down and I just started crying and couldn't stop I was running on the treadmill and just kept crying and luckily there weren't many people there so I did a little more working out and then decided to take myself home to finish my breakdown. Well it turns out that it was a good breakdown and I feel as if I can push myself forward and stop feeling sorry for myself and giving up so easily. I'm excited to see where this little (break through takes me)! :)