Christmas/ Winter

thinking, thinking, thinking...

what's new.. all i do is think. life has been kind of difficult these last few weeks.. i've come to some disturbing realities and i'm not sure if i like it. Winter time brings back memories of the past and so in order to forget those memories i'm doing my best to make new ones!:) and trying to stay positive.

Christmas this year was not what i was expecting, it actually kind of sucked.. this was the first time since i can remember that we cancelled our christmas eve plans with my mom's side of the family. It makes me really sad because it was the first christmas without my grandma and it was already weird and then to have to move our plans made it even more weird. We all really miss my grandma and the holidays were not the same without her!

SNOW DAY!!!

Yesterday, i felt like a little kid again.. waking up really early loooking out the window hoping there would be enough snow on the ground for school to be cancelled.. except now that i have a "real" job i was hoping that my work would call and say we were cancelled.. well FOrtuately after trying to get my new vehicle out for the day i got stuck in my driveway and wasn't able to go anywhere with drifts 3 feet, my boss called and said we are not opening, its just not worth it. :)))

On my snow day i had a chance to relax and ponder life and things that i have not been wanting to think about but am now being forced to think about. I miss being able to just sit by the fire and not have a care in the world except what was going to be on the dinner table.. Now i have TOo many responsibilities.. manning 3 jobs takes up MOST of my time.. and when i'm not doing that all i want to do is go out, or workout.. so needless to say i really enjoyed having a day to relax and to be "stranded" in my house!

Life Journey 101

Wow... this last month has been interesting to say the least!! As i have come across some very difficult conclusions and choices to be made, i've realized a few things about life that i'm not sure i wanted to ever know but i'm glad i am forced to experience them.

Through all the rough stuff i am learning, i also turned 21 in november (what a perfect time in my life to turn 21. huh?):) ha. I am really struggling with self discovery, its quiet a reality check, i never realized the impact one person can have on me until i was without.. I am definately enjoying learning about myself but somedays are more difficult then others, just take one day at a time and keep looking towards the dreams i want to reach.

I'm just enjoying life right now and not having to worry about someone always look over my shoulder and telling me what i should and shouldnt be doing with my life and helping me make decisions, i now get to make my own decisions and do the things that i want for once.. :)

Okay. now i'm just rambling..

I almost forgot the most exciting part of NOVEMBER!! i went to VEGAS!! I had SOO much fun and i met lots of randoms people, some of which i only remember from pictures... it was nice to let loose for once and to have a good time, and you can definately see i had fun by the pictures posted on my facebook. :) I love my parents and all their friends!!