Week 3 of W.W.

*300 Highest Weight-- made me change(1-16-14)

*296 Monday's SCARY weight :/ (9-19-13) 

*292 Today's weight (9-13-13) (1-31-14)

*287 highest weight May 2013 (after IUD)

*285 current weight

*283 the weight that haunts me

*280 Last week

*278 when I started "17 Day Diet" Oct 2012

*260 Florida  Trip Nov 2012

*245 what I weighed when I went on my first date with Scott 11-11-11

*240 what I weighed when I started running 2009

*220 what I weighed on our CRUISE 2010

*200 while I worked at Burgie's 2007

*199 Jump for joy I'm in One-derland!

*180 what I weighed before I started working at Burgie's Coffee shop (in High School)

*165 GOAL WEIGHT

Decided to bring back this bad boy! :)

I'm finally trucking along and not embarrassed that I keep having to add numbers

to this timeline, I actually get to start closing numbers off it!

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This week has been great!

I have finally started to get a groove as far as what I can eat and when I can

eat what.  I am allowed 47 points in a day, along with my 49 points for weekly allowance, and

I also get to swap any workout points I earn throughout the week.

This week, I used all my extra points on Saturday night, I decided to have cocktails and eat

what I want within my daily and weekly point allowance.  I consumed 82 points (not great, but

still better then my TERRIBLE day the week before!), then on Sunday I still had some

weekly points left and I consumed 71 points, which used up the rest of my weekly points and then a few extra.... My way of making this up was to go to the gym after work 

every night this week, I also didn't use all my points each day (they say not to do that....oh well), I wasn't always hungry and I didn't think it was necessary to eat all my points if i wasn't hungry anyway.

I feel like I'm starting to gain more knowledge about foods and what I should eat,

and the times I should eat.... instead of eating because I'm stressed or bored.

I'm really proud of myself for giving up girls night this week ( I knew I didn't have much for

points) so I decided to go to the gym instead and earn more points!

I'm SOO excited, I lost another 4 lbs this week! :)
I can't believe how great I'm starting to feel!
I was really hoping to hit the 10 lb loss this week, but next week we will blow
that out of the water! Maybe I will be able to cross a few of those
awful weight's from the timeline off next week!

Continuing the fight for my life back!
After watching Biggest Loser this week, and seeing how far they have all come
and how much stronger they are makes me want to see that in myself!
Watching Rachel cry as she crossed the finish line at the triathlon,
was so empowering! I could just see in her face that she
was SOO proud of herself! I can't wait to start feeling
that way! :)

This was after Week 1. ( Just wanted to do face shots so I can see how much my face changes.)

                                                   

This is 1/31/14, start of Week 3.

There isn't too much of a difference yet! This isn't much weight difference either.

Week 1 of W.W.

Just thought I would give you all a little update about how weight watchers 

is going so far!

I've set my weigh in days for Friday's, that way if I cheat a little on the weekends

I have ALL week to make up for it. :)

After my first weigh in I was surprised to see I was down 4 lbs... 

I did really well with following the plan and staying within my 45 points I was allowed

in a day, I think I only used a handful of my weekly allowance.

After I entered lose they increased my points to 47 points, I'm guessing cause I lost more then

the 2 lbs they recommend, but I switched it back to 45 points, I'm

doing this to lose weight, and I have of a lot to lose

so obviously I am going to lose a bunch at first cause I'm changing my eating habits

drastically!

I did want to bring up my bad day I had.... I had a day that I consumed

96 points (there might even have been things that I missed when calculating).

I was a little disappointed in myself cause I basically had a binge, and lost all control, 

but I got up the next morning I recorded every one of those points because

I don't want to cheat myself anymore!

That to me was just a realization that this is how I got to where I am today.... 

(in a place where I need to lose 135 lbs, in order to be in a healthy weight range)

I did not let that get me down though! I got right back on the wagon and have

had to be really strict this week because I have NO weekly points left,

therefore I have to stay within my daily allowance, which isn't too hard!

A major contributor to my weight gain besides food is alcohol, I enjoy going out

with my friends and having fun, and not thinking about how many calories

or points each drink is... I'm realizing that when I did drink a couple nights a week, those

added up to almost the entire daily allowance I could have, just from the drinks!, not including the food I ate also.

So, now when I think about having a few drinks I have to justify is it worth the points or can I pass on them..

I do have the option to use some of my weekly allowance to compensate for a night

out if I want, I don't want to use those if I don't have to though.

This process is all about balance....

If you are currently doing Weight Watchers, add me to your friend list!

I love to encourage and get encouragement and tips from others!

My user name is kdlarson22

What's the Meaning of Life?

This seems to be a question I have asked myself a lot lately...

Why are we here on earth....

What do you want from this life....

Why do we have to change things....

Well, I've come up with a few thoughts and wanted to share and see what you guys

have to say about them also...

If you have kept up with my blogs you all know that I struggle a lot with my weight... (like most people)..

but lately I have just wondered... what does that even mean...

...having no self-respect....

....seeing yourself as an object instead of human....

....no willpower....

At this point, I almost feel like I have failed at this thing we all call life...

I still can't answer the question what do I want in this life, or out of this life....

I'm merely just existing,

that doesn't seem fun to any person, 

I haven't learned to push myself,

and to make myself better and to strive to figure out these ongoing questions that

are in my brain.

I've lost myself so much that I can't even explain the big picture of life

or what I want out of it...

I have forgotten what makes me happy (that's a sad day)

So what am I going to do about it?

Well, I decided to join Weight Watchers Online... it is a start for me (it may not fix everything),

I need to be able to take care of myself and have respect for my self and my body in order

to answer some of these questions.

I'm hoping to find these answer in the gym, and by slowly

giving up some of the things I feel have lead me to

this place of darkness and unhappiness.

It's time to take CONTROL, and decide what I want for ME

and no one else!