Addiction

I was thinking last night about how disappointed I've been with myself in not 

having enough will power to say no to food and say yes to being happy and healthy.

This is the realization I came up with....

I thought to myself remember how hard it was to think about quitting smoking....

Well after I did the Climb for Air and I couldn't breath and I struggled with the thought that I couldn't

even make it up 16 flights of stairs... Well I then made up the decision that I need to quit

smoking because I didn't want that to hold me back from being able

to accomplish things in my life.  And from that day on I hardly thought about picking up a cigarette again, it's been about 5 months and I have maybe had 2 cigarettes and to be honest I don't miss

it at all.

Now the question is, why can't I carry this over to my eating habits?!

I know that if I don't start eating healthier and getting in shape that I am at risk for 

heart disease, diabetes, having a heart attack and many other things but I guess that isn't enough

to scare my mind into not eating those bad things... (I don't get why it was

so easy to quit smoking, cause my bad eating happened about the same time

I started smoking...)

My BF and I had a brief discussion last night about how hard it is for him to quit 

chewing... mainly because it's been a part of his life for so long,

and he just isn't fully ready to give it up... but 

I connected that with my food addiction, I love food and most of the food I love

aren't very good for me but it's SO hard to just

up and say I will never have "that" again, it makes you want to eat more of it

because you are thinking about how you might have to give it up.

I constantly think about how I need to change and how much better my life can be

and how bad I want it... but.... this darn food addiction is killing me... it's like a bad voice in my head

that says you don't want to give up the foods you love (SO DON'T)... 

Life Changes

It's been awhile since I've made an update!

I'm happy to say it's for a good cause though, I have accepted a

new position at my current job, so that is keeping me busy at this time.

I'm also getting prepared for school to start again next week, so my mind has been 

occupied with that. (I have an interesting semester coming up, I'm taking

Intro to International Bus, Accounting 1, and Microeconomics...)

Given all that information I have not had much time to focus on the foods I have been

eating nor have I taken the time to exercise much either. :(

I had last week off so I did enjoy a few long bike rides throughout the week,

one of them being a 37 mile ride by myself and the other with the BF was a 26 mile ride.

This is where I ended my 37 mile ride.

This is where we ended our 26 mile ride, of coarse with Apple Pie Shots! :)

We enjoyed our week off with lots of bad foods and drinks to make things more interesting!

We also attended the Iowa State Fair.

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I have been really thinking about things in terms of the future and even the present

and I've realized that some of the little things I put off as being no big deal (such as a stomach ache

or swollen hands & feet, even just different things changing with my body) when in reality

I could end up being a really big deal, so my mind is starting to switch into a more positive thinking as far

as picking better foods to eat and make better choices for my body and my life(it hasn't fully kicked in but my mind is starting to change)

Also, it has been a huge change for me since accepting a new position, I'm liking my surroundings 

and the things that are happening in my life a lot better so it makes me want to 

do better for myself and make myself feel good.