This seems to be a question I have asked myself a lot lately...
Why are we here on earth....
What do you want from this life....
Why do we have to change things....
Well, I've come up with a few thoughts and wanted to share and see what you guys
have to say about them also...
If you have kept up with my blogs you all know that I struggle a lot with my weight... (like most people)..
but lately I have just wondered... what does that even mean...
...having no self-respect....
....seeing yourself as an object instead of human....
....no willpower....
At this point, I almost feel like I have failed at this thing we all call life...
I still can't answer the question what do I want in this life, or out of this life....
I'm merely just existing,
that doesn't seem fun to any person,
I haven't learned to push myself,
and to make myself better and to strive to figure out these ongoing questions that
are in my brain.
I've lost myself so much that I can't even explain the big picture of life
or what I want out of it...
I have forgotten what makes me happy (that's a sad day)
So what am I going to do about it?
Well, I decided to join Weight Watchers Online... it is a start for me (it may not fix everything),
I need to be able to take care of myself and have respect for my self and my body in order
to answer some of these questions.
I'm hoping to find these answer in the gym, and by slowly
giving up some of the things I feel have lead me to
this place of darkness and unhappiness.
It's time to take CONTROL, and decide what I want for ME
and no one else!
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