Relief

That seems to be the word that describes my emotions the last couple weeks.  I'm feeling relief from school and all the stress I seem to work up during a semester, relief in being free for a few weeks to do what I want and focus on myself and not trying to make everything perfect, and also relief from trying to be the 'perfect' girlfriend.... I do my best to keep things together but it's kind of nice to a have a little relief during the week where I can fully focus on what I want and need to accomplish for myself! Don't get me wrong I love my boyfriend to death but it's always a relief to have a few days apart to remember how much we miss each other when we aren't together all the time.

I'm reading a book called "I Thought It was Just Me (but it isn't)" by Brene Brown, it is about the way Shame affects our lives and why we feel it.

"You cannot shame or belittle people into changing their behaviors."  That is just a little bit from the book, I will keep you updated as I learn more and understand more about shame because I think it has a big effect on my life and my weight lose issues. 

I'm going to take these few weeks that I get off from school and try to gather myself into one piece again and really focus on me, I get so caught up in life and school that I forget to take care of myself and make myself happy.  This next semester is really going to test me and I'm super nervous but I'm trying to focus on taking a break before I get to stressed about learning this new material and looking through books again. 

MERRY CHRISTMAS! Hoping to get some snow in this state this week! :)