That is the question these days cause I'm certainly not kidding myself! The extend of this past week is asking myself, what is stopping you, and what are you going to do about it? Seriously, I feel so unhealthy, and my lower back has recently started hurting (I assume from being overweight), and I just plain don't feel good lately.
I've been following a blog the last couple months and it has really inspired me to think about my health and the way I live my life, as far as exercise and food are concerned. (http://www.mamalaughlin.com/) This is the blog. Just a brief summary the lady from this blog was at 200 lbs at one time and is now down to 136lbs, all after having two kids. As I was reading a post from yesterday it was a question answer post, and it was very encouraging to me, the main one that stuck at me was when someone asked "When you first started working out, how long were your workouts?" and she responded short about 25-30 min, OMG such a relief to here. She responded its all I COULD do. I often beat myself up when I go the gym and don't stay long, but first of all I should be proud of myself for actually GOING, and second I'm trying and I shouldn't get down on myself for not being about to do things I could do when I went to the gym in the past. It takes time to build your muscles and your body back up to be able to work out longer and "better". Also on other thing she talked about was how fast she lost pant sizes and she said it took her about 15 lbs before she really noticed a pant size decrease, well that's actually encouraging to me, makes me thing I just need to work that much harder because as soon as she went down the first couple sizes it seems the the sizes get going down faster from there. My biggest downfall (so to say) is my motivation, yeah I can get down 5-10 lbs and to be honest it doesn't take me long to do, but its sticking with it that's my biggest problem.
I'm pretty much at a breaking point, I'm sick of failing myself, and making up excuses for something that ONLY I can fix and make better. I'm definitely not perfecta and I still expect to fail but I refuse to go downhill any longer, I am choosing to change my lifestyle.
I SO miss running, I can't even run for more then 5 min a night because my knees just can't handle the weight of my body on them. But that is going to change, as soon as I can get down and weight a little I will definitely be getting my run on (and damit that's a promise!) I miss the "runners high" so bad, awh that was a great feeling, when you just feel like you could run forever and nothing else mattered.
I have over 100lbs to lose to be in healthy weight range, I never thought I could ever get to this point in my life(ever). I'm getting excited for this journey though, yea its going to be hard and YES I will need encouragement from people but I will not give up because I am worth this, and it's not fair to my loved ones around me to suffer for something that I can change rather then complaining about it all the time!
So, there it is, my plea for help and me motivation to accomplish a goal, and to not give up on myself!
I hope that everyone will follow me on this journey through the ups and downs, and maybe I can be an encouragement to others just as so many people have encouraged me (one of my biggest fans is my boyfriend!!-- who has in the last year lost over 50 lbs himself, and would tell me I'm beautiful no matter what I look like on the outside. )
I'm always up for tips on working out and also different recipes! PLEASE DON'T BE SHY! :)
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