Another Day

I have been so caught up in 'comfortable zone' aka not care at all about what I look like

or feel like or what I eat... since we have moved to our new house!

I'm so in love with having more space and enjoying our house that I don't want to leave

to go do much.

I'm starting to feel like a giant balloon and I know I have gained back most of the

weight I have lost since I started weight watchers and I'm pretty disappointed in my myself.

I am  having a hard time getting back into it!

I swear this being healthy thing is more stressful then to just not care.

(I do care... that's why it is so hard for me)

I really want to feel good about myself and to not be stressed about having to

buy a huge wedding dress, but I'm still lacking the total 

motivating that it takes to stick with a new lifestyle.

I did really good for a month and I go off the wagon for a few days and I 

realize how much I miss the foods I like to eat and then I just completely

indulge and then I can't get back on the wagon, I think I gain more weight when this

happens because I'm so stressed and mad at myself for not sticking with

my plan. :/

Trust me I don't expect this to be easy by any means... I have been on this up and down roller coaster for 5 years now... I can't seem to get the hang of it and to stay with it

long enough to make a huge difference... I want results and I'm not

getting them in the way that I feel I should be.

I have an advocare Herbal Cleanse I bought awhile ago, I think after this

week I might do that again.

I want this SO bad that I am making myself struggle and stress

that I think it's making the situation worse.

My fiance and my mom did the stair climb this weekend for the 3rd year.

It was a reminder to me of when I quit smoking last year and how much I struggled

with the climb, and how I am back to smoking and starting back 

at square one.