Keep Moving!

After the very raw honest post from last week, I have been reflecting and have talked to a few ppl that have read my blog and I was very surprised to hear how many people really enjoy reading my blog (that makes me feel good!), I was extremely nervous for the response I would get for exposing myself to things I don't really talk about much and then sharing it with the world, but even more extreme sharing it with people that I am close to!  I don't regret any of my past, everything that has happened to has made me stronger and made me who I am today! :)  Thanks to all my readers and those who support me, and most of all for not judging me to harshly!

On to more fun things!

After the topic of how I got to the SIZE I am, and completely laying it out on the table really

made me realize I have to break the cycle and this past week has been a huge learning curve and changed the way I think about myself, exercise, and eating healthy.

The biggest change I have made (remember it's only been a week.. there's still a lot I have to change but

these are just a few) during this past week, is I get excited to go to the gym... I 

try to think about what I want to accomplish while I'm at the gym and set a goal for myself and I don't leave the gym till I meet that goal. (usually I set a goal of wanting to get in 3 miles of exercise, so that means maybe I run 2 miles and do a mile on the cross trainer... however I get to 3 miles is my choice but I don't leave till I accomplish that goal)

I LOVE to run/jog again!! :D

I did a mile in 12:03 Thursday night after I had run a 12:53 min mile Tuesday night.

I was SO excited I kept going, I am more proud of myself that I am

learning to push through the initial pain of running and just start to enjoy it, I LOVE the way I feel

the next day after running... My muscles are all sore but I can feel my body getting

stronger when I run.

This is a picture from a wedding reception we went to this weekend... yikes it almost looks like I'm preggers.... :(

Another thing I am really trying to get under my belt is the way I eat, and why I eat.

I am starting to think about what I put in my mouth and the way it will affect my body and even my mindset.

It's crazy that certain foods set me off, but if I eat something unhealthy (chips for example), it makes me

want to continue to eat things that aren't good, it's like I can't control it.

Also another major thing that  hinders me is when I drink, I seem to think that anything and everything

is free game to shove down my throat after I have had like 2 or 3 (this one

is maybe the hardest habit to break at this time). Baby steps!

We had kind of a big weekend planned which can be really hard to stay on track and keep

my willpower strong enough to not make really bad choices.  I feel I held my ground fairly well... 

We did go to the gym Saturday, then we played tennis for awhile.

One way I've been testing my willpower to by choosing to not eat the bun or bread with my meals,

I love my carbs but I know they are not helping my weight lose cause I eat

WAY too many.  This simple step shows me that I'm committed to being a healthier me.

I don't want to be glued to the scale cause I don't want it to discourage me but for the first couple weeks I wanted to weigh myself to make sure what I am doing is working!

Monday last week 6-17-13 I weighed 287lbs when I got on the scale... Friday 6-21-13 I weighed 283lbs, I can't complain about 4lbs lost, but I was afraid after the weekend to step on the scale

so I decided to bust my butt at the gym tonight and then set on tomorrow to see how an entire week went!

I want to be out to of the 280's cause they are sabotaging me!