This is MY life

This weekend I thought I should consider using myfitnesspal app again, I used to use it to keep track of calories in the past but I really hate to keep track of everything I eat... Well it was not a good feeling after revealing to myself what and how much of stuff I eat in a day and how many calories I consume.

It's really no wonder I have gotten to the size I am now and why I feel so ashamed, I don't really wanna do this because it's a big step but here is what my calorie intake was for yesterday. This is a typical day for me.

(Sorry i guess you can't read that very well, my goal is 1990 in a day, I consumed 3295, and I went over by 1305 calories)


This is a major reality check if you ask me.... This is not just because it was a weekend, this is something that I would do/did.  It makes me sad to see that i was almost 2 times over my calorie budget and not only that I'm sure there was some things I forgot to add too, and I probably had a little more vodka that what I wrote down.

This is me being honest with you guys and myself, I did this for the last 2 years to my body, I eat around 3000 calories a day and didn't even realize it, and most days I didn't workout.  At least at this point I am making a better effort to workout every night which has been going fairly well but to still eat that many calories and workout doesn't even bring me down to the calorie intake I should have in a day.