As I was waking up this morning from bed and pondering on my sleep and thinking of how i have to get up and get ready for work, i was in confusing with the tiny bits of my dream that keep popping into my head from the night. So i begin concentrating and trying to create the image again in my head while i was awake so i could remember what happened in this imaginative word of dreams.
This is what i came up with, so most of you know that my grandma passed away a couple weeks ago and i haven't really grieved much because it seemed like it all went by so fast(the funeral and all that) so now whenever i think of her i get sad and want to cry. So my dream started about as a blur and then all of sudden it popped into the action.
"After visiting my grandma in the hospice every night when she passed we all obviously stopped going there and for some reason we were being pushed to go there(this is in my dream,FYI) so my parents and i went there and it seemed as though we were at a camp with cabins and different things. so we walked around and came to my grandma's room (which she shouldn't be in cause she passed away) well to our surprise she was there, acting as normal as can be... WEIRD!!! she looked like she did before she got sick just young and energetic and it was strange because she just didnt seem like she was sick, and we all knew that she was very sick.. So as we got more confused we called over the nurse and she responded with oh she has come back and is no longer sick... and so being even more confused, i asked some more questions and the nurse said, she was gone and she came back healed.
OK... so then i was like well maybe she like went to heaven and got healed and she got sent back to earth to live the life that she missed... i was very confused. Well as my dream was fading back into a blur it seemed as thought it was normal and so we all went on with our lives as if that hadn't just happened."
So this is confusing to me cause i'm not really sure what dreams do for us other then its like our imagination at night while we sleep... and so i was very confused by this dream and not really sure what to think about it.
My first thought was, i know that people who die are like ghosts in a sense they are still there but we just can't see them, so i thought maybe it was just reassurance that my grandma is going to be still enjoying life even if she isn't here. Cause when she passed i was very upset because i felt like she didn't get to do much stuff in her life mainly because she didn't have much money and so it was very hard for me to see her go cause i didnt think she had a fulfilled life.
I think that was reassurance for the that she is doing good and she is cancer free and enjoying life right now, probably at a casino somewhere where money doesn't matter and she has lots of it! :)
RIP Grandma you will always be missed and loved and i know you are enjoying yourself where ever it is that you are right now!
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